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Such a dumpster fire of a film
#disney#aladdin#princess jasmine#abu#magic carpet#iago#genie#jafar#the return of jafar#VHS#direct to video#Disney direct to video#trash movie#cinematic garbage
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"How bad do I smell?"
#hot garbage#if Dina smells bad Ellie still loves it#stop pretending that body odor is gross it's pheremones and it's awesome stfu#the last of us#tlou2#tlou2 photomode#tlou2 remaster#ellie williams#the last of us part 2#tlou2 ellie#tlou2 ellie williams#dina nolastname#ellie and dina#tlou2 dina#tlou2 cinematic#tlou2 winter dance
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2014 Marvel:
2024 Marvel:
#im so here for it#marvel#marvel cinematic universe#mcu#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool#wolverine#god i love whats become of this ridiculous universe#it might be a pile of garbage but its MY pile of garbage#g
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just watched The Hobbit 4-hour M4 re-Edit and it healed my soul.
re-colored, OCs totally cut out, Legolas & Frodo cameos barely 5 seconds as they should be. music better, WAY more focus on the Dwarves so you actually get to know them and get invested in their story, and edited so the story focuses on BILBO!!!
#the hobbit#actually felt like LOTR#inswear the m4 editor is Peter Jackson in disguise#lotr#the hunt for gollum#it was a beautiful 4 hr film that utilized so much cut material and was SO COHESIVE#perfect#god the cinematic cut is absolute flaming garbage#i blame the grimey studio#infeel bad for all the work the actors and jackson did now
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Been working on this all week just for something to patter away on. A little more Tudors AU.
It was almost strange, seeing the children playing on the lawn.
Cord knew that she must have done so, once, and other children, too, but it was one thing to see it in your memory and another to see it in life, a pair of golden-haired imps laughing and running too and fro while they played. The thought of children visiting had frightened her, a little, and she hadn't known how they would manage. But John had told her after he'd already made the invitation, and by then it was too late to argue.
She hadn't known what would they be like - John's friends. She'd met some of them at the wedding - if you could use the word 'met' to mean 'saw across the room at dinner, and seen turned out of the house drunk the next morning'. They'd been a wild, riotous lot then, and she wasn't sure she quite had the patience for that again.
But Gale and Marjorie were different - so different, in fact, that Cord found herself wondering how he and John had ever become friends at all.
It was a story she would have to extract from Gale alone - but not this morning. Today he and John were out hunting, and she and Marjorie had taken the children outside to the gardens to play, watching from a pair of chairs that the servants had brought outside. The birds were singing, and Gale's wife was working on piecing a tiny shirt for her next blessed arrival, her belly great and round under her gown. Motherhood sits well on her - I do not think it would sit so well on me.
"It was kind of you to come and visit. I know with two little ones and another coming it must have been difficult."
"We were glad to do it," Marjorie said with a smile. "John is Gale's oldest friend - and Ralph's godfather, too, I think you know."
Cordelia nodded. She'd been a little surprised, when they'd gone out to greet the carriage, and John had magically produced new toys for both Ralph and little Cecily, stooping down to their level to gift them and accepting their wet, sticky kisses with good grace, and listening with pointed attention to Ralph's long and many-sided recapturing of the carriage ride. "He's very good with children. I…I hadn't thought he would be."
"He is a gentle soul, behind his armor," Marjorie observed. "I see that more here than I ever have before. He is changed, here. Your marriage has been good for him, I think."
Good! Good, with an empty marriage bed, and the couch in his closet that he also never sleeps in? Good with courteous greetings over breakfast and not much else? "Has it? He…he is still much a stranger to me." I only met him the day we wed.
Marjorie nodded, serene. "When we first met, he and my husband were young pups of twenty with scarcely blooded swords. They drank much and laughed hard and scarcely knew what fear meant."
Cord thought of the late nights and the steward's remarks about the cellar, the laughter in the hall and the way the maids whispered in the morning. "John is still so."
Marjorie chuckled quietly, her hand resting peacefully on the large swell of her stomach. "Ah, no, but he is changed. And for the better. War taught him to be wise. He is not so foolhardy as he was when we first met - he thinks more, speaks less. Even if it seems he never stops. And he was always a fool for a pair of fine eyes."
"He is that, still, too."
Marjorie glanced at her. "He spoke of none but you at dinner, when he came to visit us. And there were pretty girls aplenty in the hall."
Ralph ran up to tug at his mother's sleeve, his sister tumbling behind him. "Mama, mama, will you not look at the castle we built?"
Marjorie carefully found herself in her chair and laid aside her needlework, rising slowly. "Indeed I will, and Auntie Cordelia will come with me and look too."
Cord felt a twinge at being called 'Auntie' - but John was Uncle, so it followed she was now an Aunt. The castle was a little thing, firewood and fallen limbs dragged around to have a little keep, with an opening for the door, but Marjorie oohed and ahhed as if it were a palace as her son went on and on describing the tower and the eagle on the roof and the stairs and the kitchens.
He was still in the middle of an antic description of the herd of goats in the castle keep when there was a shout from the garden gate - John coming back from the hunt.
Immediately Ralph's attention turned. "Uncle John, Uncle John! Look at my castle!"
John was smiling, pulling off his gloves as he came. Gale must have still been in the stables. "Your castle? But it is on my land! Now that may do at your father's house but it won't do here! I shall have to knock it all down!
"Uncle John!" Ralphie was giggling, knowing full well that his uncle was joking.
"No, no, I can't have it," John said, planting his feet firmly in the grass. "I will attack with full force unless someone rides out to meet me!"
"Get him!" Ralph shouted, and he and his sister ran shrieking for their much taller uncle, wrapping themselves around his legs and hitting him over and over with their small fists until finally he toppled to his knees and laid himself out on the grass like a tragedian in some play.
"Oh, oh, me! I am slain. If only someone could fetch my wife."
"C'mon Auntie Cordelia, you have to come," Ralph said, dragging at her sleeve.
"Come on!" Cecily repeated, giggling with her brother.
"Oh, all right," Cord said, following dutifully along as Ralph dragged her back to where they'd been playing and John lay sprawled on the ground, making the most ridiculous face of pain with one eye half open, like he really was dead. "What must I do?"
"You have to get on your knees and take his hand and say prayers with him," Ralph commanded. "That's what people do when they're dying."
"Oh," Cord said, taken aback by how much a five year old knew about these things, and quickly followed, kneeling next to John while he tried to look appropriately at death's door. Ralph knelt too, and quickly pressed his hands together and screwed his eyes shut and began reciting the Lord's Prayer in rapid fire Paternosterqueesincaelis while his sister mumbled along, her hands aping his, both eyes open so she could take her cues. Reluctantly Cord picked up John's hand where it was resting on his chest, and began reciting along with Ralph, quieter and slower than him. His hand was hardly dead at all, still very much warm and with a beating heart still beneath it. She was so fixed on the play and the prayer that she didn't notice that John's eyes were open now, and he was smiling a little.
"What is all this shouting?" That was Gale.
"Ralphie has just killed Uncle John for storming the castle, and now they have called Auntie Cordelia because he is dying," Marjorie explained, as though all of this were the most normal thing in the world.
"Oh," Gale said, trying hard to keep up. "Is that all?"
"Auntie Cord, you have to help me build the castle again," Ralph said, tugging at her sleeve again, his paternoster clearly over.
But she found she wasn't finished with this yet. "It is very sad, Ralph. I am a widow now. I might like to be alone for a little while." I was a prize of battle once. I do not wish to be again. And she found, when it came to it, that she did not mind the feeling of his hand in hers, the way his chest was rising and falling against it.
"Maybe true love's kiss can bring Uncle John back," Marjorie suggested, only very lightly teasing, and Cord looked down at John, his eyes still shut. Was that a smile tugging at his mouth?
But why shouldn't she? She leaned over, hand still holding his, and pressed her lips to his. He smelled of earth, and sweat, and leather, and his lips opened, just slightly, as she kissed them, his hand tightening on hers. She opened her eyes and found he was awake again. "Hello, wife. Thank you for saving me."
She felt the old prickliness return, the urge to riposte and hit back. "If I did not, I should have to marry again."
"Would that be so bad? I'm sure Ralph would be a kind husband." Somehow the words stung her as he said them. As I am not, perhaps?
What could she say to such a thing? She did not want to give him ground. "But very young." And not capable of such kisses.
#i have written a thing#mercurygraypresents#tds cinematic universe#tudors au#cordelia callaway#anyway theoretical gale and marge kiddos!#i love them so much!#john is such a good uncle!#this is garbage but it's MY garbage
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And a sweet night out at the bar!!!
#thanos#marvel#marvel comics#infinity gauntlet#thanos the mad titan#marvel cosmic#avengers#marvel cinematic universe#tony stark#iron man#superman#doctor strange#doctor doom#thor#mcu#bar crawl#pub crawl#kratos#god of war#i know its bs ai garbage#it mad me laugh
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you know, you really shouldn’t eat those hotdogs. theyre 8 months past the date. theyll make you see through time.
extremely failed redraw of
#AAAAAHHHH FIRST ELMER DRAWING#aside from the practice doodle yesterday#i tried to make him look kinda desaturated n ‘dead’ in a sense because obviously he has no heart so his blood isnt pumping through his body#lin stfu nobody cares#im not thrilled about how it turned out but fuck it#sometimes i just draw absolute fucking garbage and that’s ok#ignore the background i did not even try#also don’t quote me on the heart thing im a little bit stupid#elmer phitts#brcu#brandon rogers cinematic universe#brandon rogers#brandon rogers fanart#brcu fanart
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#my vp looks like garbage next to others#like i put no effort in at all#i have no business taking pics for modder's pages lmao#there are so many people who make such beautiful scenes meanwhile my characters look so stiff and lifeless and just so... in game#if that makes sense#i wanna make stuff that looks cinematic and moody and beautiful
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Why not just do the chooee violence meme post now instead of digging up random garbage that no one has seen for three years
I suppose a shovel IS multipurpose
#it can be used for choosing violence but also for digging up random garbage#and#3 year old stuff isn't even outdated anon not when it's continuity of movies that are part of an ongoing cinematic universe especially :/
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I finally watched the Barbie movie
It sucks.
#this movie brought back a ton of feelings and self-hatred I hadn't thought about since I first started transitioning#if you cannot visualize a future in which men are also free of the patriarchy then you're not a feminist#garbage gender-essentialist revenge fantasy wrapped in faux-feminism lip service#with a few transphobic jokes thrown in at the end for good measure#the cinematic equivalent of a pussy hat#the more I dwell on it the more I hate it
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MY EXACT NICHE thank you so much <3333
shoot, uhhh kriff
Sabine and I are vibing right now
original idea from @chaoticdumbassrogue
#made my day made my week made my year#brilliant concept op#thank u sticks and souls !!!#hera’s right tg86 IS a cinematic masterpiece (and a garbage fire (affectionate))#top gun 1986#star wars: rebels#kanera#i love tjem !!!!
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Trying to have a romantic date with Mr Reca but he doesn’t stop explaining/complaining about the movie you just saw together.
Little Mister Critique
Mr Reca x reader
I decided to keep this nice and simple as I have a lot of requests I need to finish:) Mr Reca is so fucking underrated it’s absolutely insane. (Let me know if anyone wanna be apart of my taglist).
Masterlist
The restaurants atmosphere was cozy and romantic. Multiple candles were littered around in a fashionable sense. You and your beloved boyfriend was sitting in a both in a private corner on the second floor of the luxurious restaurant. The giant windows looked out over the city. The city lights glittered like the stars in the darl sky. It was truly a breathless sight. The sound of cutlery against porcelain filled sounded like wind chimes.
The men in front of you cut into his lasagna before he brought it to his lips. He chewed with a delighted hum. After swallowing he hummed again “My my, this restaurant truly is delightful, is it not? I think I should make one of the scenes in my new movie take place here…”
You nodded. “Yeah, the food and the atmosphere are truly something” you have the brunette a soft smile. His eyes twinkled like red stars as his lips retuned your smile.
“So what woul-”
“God that movie we just watched was truly a disgrace to the cinematic arts” Reca interrupted you. He shook his head in great disappointment as he recalled the movie.
You raised your brow as you sighed. Here we go again.
“I don’t think it was that bad” you shrugged. “You are overreacting. Now eat your food.”
“Of course it was bad! The cinematography was horrendous, the colours obnoxious, the costumes extremely cheap” he waved his hands in a dramatic manner. “Ugh and don’t even get me started on the acting and script! It should be illegal to produce such garbage. It’s a disgrace to directors and the audience to witness such filth” he scoffed. Reva’s handsome face was twisted in annoyance. “I should have asked for a refund” he muttered under his breath as he took a sip of his red wine.
“Reca” your stern voice broke him out of his theatrics. He swallowed as he glanced down on the plate. He looked like a guilty puppy and you but your tongue as to not laugh out loud.
“You have been complaining about that goddamn movie on the whole way from the cinema and till we got our food. I finally thought you would have gotten it out of your mind when you got your food, but I guess I was wrong” you sighed. “But I do agree with you, it was bad, but don’t let it ruin our date. Okay?” you stroke his hand gently.
His charming smile returned to his lips as he nodded firmly. “You are naturally right, my dear. I shall refrain from talking about that garbage” he lifted his wine glass. Your glasses clicked together. “Let us have a date that even the best romantic films of the cosmos won’t even dream to compare with.”
#mr reca x reader#mr reca#hsr x reader#hsr x you#hsr fluff#honkai star rail x reader#honkai star rail#honkai star rail fluff#honkai star rail x you#hsr x y/n
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The Robin to My Batman (Neil Lewis/Fem!OC)
Pairing: Neil Lewis/Fem!OC
Summary: A comic book store opens up next to Gumshoe Video prompting a hot and heavy feud between the two businesses and their nerdy owners.
Theme: Romance - Enemies to Lovers
Warnings: Nerds being nerds, smut
The early morning walks to open Gumshoe Video are always enjoyable for Neil. He loves getting coffee from that family owned Armenian coffee shop down the street, greeting the old man who owns the hardware store across the street, and contemplating what the day’s theme should be.
However, his gorgeous, peaceful morning comes to a screeching halt as he spots a large moving truck parked in front of Gumshoe— no, parked in front of the vacant store to the left of his. He quickly darts into the alleyway across the street and watches with mounting horror as some—so far unrecognizable—new business moves in.
“No no no no no,” Neil mutters to himself, already picturing the worst case scenario. What if it’s a competing video store? Or perhaps on of those Christian shops that sells over priced bible themed tchotchkes? Both are miserable possibilities and he has no idea what he’ll do if either of those ends up being the case.
When the coast is clear of movers, Neil goes sprinting into his store and making a made dash for the phone to call his friends.
He has a bad feeling about this.
…
The first time he sees her is at the grand opening of Golden Age Comics, the new comic book store next door. The first thing he sees when he walks in isn’t the life sized cutouts of various comic book characters placed strategically about nor the wall display of rare figurines.
No, the first thing he sees is her, Bailey Taylor, the owner of the shop. She’s dressed like Wonder Woman, displaying these long shapely legs that have Neil’s jaw going slack in awe. She flutters about the store, greeting customers and advertising the big grand opening sale she’s running.
Johnathan and Lucien, who came into the store with him, start needling each other excitedly, muttering about how hot she is and Neil can only feel dread. This can only spell bad news, he just knows it.
Not at all like a coward, he quickly flees the store before she can approach him.
…
The first time he actually meets Bailey, she comes into his shop. Today Gumshoe is having a deal on westerns and so Neil is dressed accordingly as a cowboy. When she walks into his store, it creates a rather comical juxtaposition as it appears her own store is having a sale on Japanese manga.
Sailor Moon Bailey and Cowboy Neil stare each other down.
“Um, hi,” she greets with an awkward little wave, her smile bright despite the uncomfortable mood, “I own the comic book store next door. My name is Bailey.”
Neil nods stiffly, doing everything in his power to not stare at how hot she looks in that cosplay. When Neil fails to respond, an irritatingly adorable frown mars her features
“Okay,” she mutters to herself before saying, “Well, I just wanted to see if you’d be willing to do a team-up and have a collaborative sale.”
Neil scoffs, “And what? Hock old Adam West Batman tapes?”
She perks up and nods enthusiastically, “Yes! Exactly! I actually have this really great id-.”
Neil shudders at the thought and cuts her off before she can get going, “The old Batman show is absolute garbage in its cinematic delivery— no way would I subject my customers to that.”
The glare she gives him could cut steel and admittedly makes his happy bits stir in interest.
“Garbage?” She snarls, “That show was a pioneer for superhero media! Just because some over hyped alcoholic wife beater didn’t direct it, doesn’t mean it’s not good!”
Neil’s eyes narrow at her and he crosses his arms, trying to appear more authoritative than he usually looks, “Oh believe me, the director has nothing to do with the bad editing and poor visual shots!”
The woman looks like she’s visibly holding herself back from launching herself over the counter and decking Neil in the face. His cock makes another inappropriate twitch at the thought and he internally scolds himself for these reactions.
Without another word, Bailey storms out of the store and stomps her way back to her own shop and Neil breathes a sigh of relief.
God, he really needs to get laid if some uneducated comic dork is getting him riled up.
…
After that disastrous first encounter, a Cold War of sorts settles over the two businesses. If Neil is having a sale, Bailey will have a better one. If Neil does a midnight showing of a movie, Bailey hosts a free-to-join D&D party. If Neil dressed up, Bailey does too but does it better.
It’s aggravating.
Neil doesn’t even know what it is about her that has him going absolutely insane, but it’s beginning to be a problem. For instance, last week she dressed up like Cat Woman and strutted about both in and out of her store, placing herself in full view of Neil boredly manning the register of his own shop. He had to go and jerk off in his office like five times; and he was still horny afterwards!
Like he said— problem.
And it’s only getting worse.
“Dude, oh my god! She’s dressed like a school girl today!��� Johnathan says while rushing into the shop, a lecherous grin on his face, “Her skirt is so short!”
Lucien cheers and Neil rams his head onto the surface of the checkout counter repeatedly.
He’s gonna die horny and infuriated by her subpar taste in cinema, it’s inevitable.
Lucien just gives him a sympathetic pat on the shoulder and leaves him to his melancholy while he and Johnathan go next door.
“Ugh what do I do?!” He laments pathetically to himself.
…
The second interaction that Neil has with Bailey happens on a slow night for both businesses.
Neil is parked on the shop couch, watching Lady in the Lake and barely staying awake when she comes into his shop. She’s dressed normal today in a worn Captain Marvel t-shirt and denim shorts and he’s a little too tired to properly hide the slow up and down he gives her.
A little blush settles on her face when she catches him doing that.
“Slow night?” She asks after clearing her throat awkwardly.
“Yeah, you?”
Bailey blows a raspberry and nods, walking over to the couch and throwing herself down onto it next to Neil. He quickly scoots over, giving her room while trying to smooth his shirt and hair down to look less like a mess.
“What are we watching?” She asks.
Things sort of devolve from there. Whether it was one innocent comment taken the wrong way, or an intentional dig, it prompts a fresh new screaming match between the two of them over the cinematic quality of the Adam West Batman series. This woman will not let go of that trash TV series, Neil realizes.
Bailey gets up from the couch at some point, Neil hot on her heels as they move their heated argument about the store. It’s when they’re next to the wall that Neil pushes her against the surface and pins her arms high above her. He’s not thinking when he kisses her, pushing his tongue into her mouth to taste her— he’s running purely on adrenaline and instinct.
That first kiss they share is not a gentle one; it’s rough and filthy and hot.
“You are such a brat,” Neil bites out scathingly, his hands slipping away from her wrists to start running over her chest, cupping those perky tits of hers in his hands.
“You are an obnoxious tool!” She sneers in return, her now free hands making quick work of his belt buckle and the button on his jeans.
“I can’t believe how terrible your taste is in cinema! A rock would have better opinions!” Neil helps her push his pants down and then reaches forward to yank her shirt off. The bra she’s wearing is just a simple navy colored one but it has him physically biting back a moan at the sight.
She smirks up at him, then pushes him away with a rough shove, sending him into one of the shelves. She gets into his space, wrapping her arms around his neck and initiating another one of those blood racing kisses.
He reaches down and grabs her under her thighs, hoisting her up to wrap her legs around his waist. He starts walking them back towards his office, fully intent on throwing her down onto his couch in there and getting all this frustration out of his system.
Sex has always been pretty gentle and by-the-book for Neil, he’s never had a desire to be rough or for a partner to be rough with him, but Bailey makes his head fuzzy. She makes him want to do things he’s never done before.
“Fuck— Neil!” She gasps when he puts her down and immediately sticks his hand down the front of her shorts and starts rubbing along her slit. It’s so wet and he groans, his cock twitching in anticipation.
“Can’t wait to shut you up,” he tells her, his long fingers alternating between rubbing vicious circles on her clit and slipping down to enter her with harsh thrusts, “Been thinking about this for weeks.”
Her fingers scratch lightly across his stomach as she pushes his shirt up, “Well, you’re going to have to do lot better than this to make that happen.”
His eyes narrow and he pulls his hand out of her shorts, ripping the button open and yanking them down her legs. He grips her around her hips and flips her onto her stomach, climbing onto her legs to keep her from kicking about.
“I am so sick of that smart mouth,” he tells her before laying a loud slap to her right ass cheek, making her cry out in surprise that dissolves into a moan. He would spank her in earnest, but he’s been so fucking horny for so long that he only gives her a few smacks before slipping his fingers up under the edge of her panties, rubbing the buttery soft skin of her ass.
Trailing his hands up, he unhooks her bra and climbs off of her so that she can turn over onto her back. She’s quick to shuck off her bra and panties, exposing herself entirely to his hungry gaze.
“You said you thought about this for weeks,” she remarks while slipping her fingers down to her folds, “How many times did you jerk off to me?”
He groans and goes down to his knees, leaning forward and shouldering his way between her thighs.
“So many fucking times,” he admits shamelessly before licking into her with enthusiasm.
Her fingers thread through his hair, tugging him forward and using the leverage to grind against his face. He could die here, smothered between those shapely thighs, and it would be in total bliss. Her moans are the sweetest thing he’s ever heard and he endeavors to hear them get louder.
“Are you gonna cum for me, baby?” He asks, his fingers returning their journey of entering her and his eyes watching with hooded rapture as her cunt sucks them into her.
“Neil,” she gasps his name, chanting it like a prayer and he picks up the pace with his fingers. He sucks on that hard little bud of hers and feels her cum around his fingers, that soaking cavern gripping him tightly.
“Fuck, baby,” he groans, “please let me fuck you.”
Her thighs are shaking as she comes down from her orgasm high, “Yes, fuck yes.”
He doesn’t need any more encouragement— he’s barely got his underwear down before he’s pushing into her. She’s tighter and wetter than any other pussy he’s been in and he tells her as much, rasping filthy things into her ear as he begins a brutal and unrelenting rhythm.
“Thought about bending you over the front counter and fucking you stupid so many times.”
Her nails dig into his back, raking along the surface and certainly leaving their mark.
The thought alone of her marking him could make him cum. He bites his lip harshly to try and wrestle back some control, unwilling to see it end so soon.
It barely works as his hips stutter in their thrusting.
“Can I cum in you?” He asks— no, practically begs her.
Her arms snake around his shoulders, tugging his head forward to rest against hers, their mouths finding each other hungrily. Between filthy, tongue filled kisses, she gasps, “Please!”
Permission granted, he buries himself as deep as possible inside of her, the head of his cock nudging her cervix, and he cums. He groans loud and long as those warm, wet walls squeeze every last drop from his cock, sucking it better than any blow job could manage.
He pulls out of her slowly and almost reluctantly, sad to part from that perfect cunt of hers. A flow of white cum follows his departure, dripping from her opening and over her ass in thick globs.
He’s never seen something so sexy in his life and he doesn’t know what he’ll do if he doesn’t get to see it again.
Stepping back from Bailey, he grabs his shirt off the floor and uses it to wipe her clean, chuckling at the deadpan look she gives him for the effort. Tossing the shirt aside, he climbs onto the couch and lays himself out next to her, pulling her to rest against his chest.
They lay like that for a long time, catching their breaths and basking in the after glow.
“You don’t really hate the Adam West Batman series, do you?” Bailey asks, her eyes looking up at Neil imploringly.
Neil about answers the way he normally would but when he looks down at her and sees the earnest expression she’s wearing, he doesn’t have it in him to be an asshole.
“No, it’s not that bad,” he lies and feels his heart flutter when she shoots him a beaming smile in return.
He thinks he can stand mediocre cinema for her sake.
#neil lewis#neil lewis x reader#neil lewis/reader#neil lewis x oc#neil lewis/oc#watching the detectives#cillian murphy#watching the detectives fic#neil lewis fic
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I played Undertale recently. My favorite character is Chara. No, I didn't kill anybody. I am going to go on about them, now.
Spoilers for Undertale, all the routes. "It came out nearly a decade ago!" Yeah and I first played it last week and was happily surprised by the sheer amount of things I hadn't been spoiled on, so. Have a courtesy warning! Also courtesy warning: Too many fucking words. I'm sorry.
As a preface: Undertale really genuinely touched me. I bring this up as a preface because I think it's important to why it is exactly I feel how I feel, and that is important to how I perceived Chara.
And it having such an impact honestly surprised me; Undertale seemed cute and fun but silly and something I had felt… prepared for? Like, inadvertently, from hearing about it and its characters for so long. And for some parts early on, I was, at least in part. I liked Sans and Papyrus from the start, but in the way that I liked a gimmick, and it took time for the enjoyment to get more and more… not genuine, it already was, but I can't find the word I'm looking for. I guess it struck me with less artificiality? It started actually getting to me. This was happening throughout the whole length of things, like, I really genuinely liked Toriel basically from the start, but the farther in I got the more it was happening. Actually, looking back, the intro cinematic really hit for me in a way that should have clued me in that this game was going to get me.
Because I really connected with Chara as the character I was playing as, to an extent that honestly really surprised me? It felt emotionally resonant. Admittedly, naming Chara the way that I did probably did a fair amount of lifting there; I used a nickname of mine that isn't used that often. I think that hit more than it would have if I had used one of my first names, since it was distant enough to easily have differentiation while also close enough to feel so immediately personal. Chara is someone where most things with them are up to interpretation, but I just had a specific interpretation readily and naturally come to me.
Of course, I knew the Chara and Frisk distinction beforehand, and that informed my interpretation pretty heavily; but I hadn't really heard much of anything about Chara other than the Genocide Route stuff, prior. I mostly saw them treated as like some pure evil nasty may-as-well-have-been-demon. I hadn't been reading like narraChara theories or anything (amazing name, 10/10 whoever coined it). I just landed there naturally. When Undertale was giving the early hints that Chara had actually come before the human you played as, like in the garbage dump, it only amplified those feelings.
My read was that I as the player I was, largely, controlling Frisk's actions, but seeing Chara's thoughts. Every time I saw or heard memories, they were Chara's. But I don't think Chara was in control of the body or anything. I think Chara was there tagging along as an observer, at first not sure what exactly was happening or understanding why; but linked to Frisk's SOUL and so having Frisk's feelings resonate through them. So, they decided to help. They not only lent their lingering Determination but also just tried to help Frisk stay determined in the normal sense. But that was what they were doing: Not acting, but watching Frisk's actions and feeling their feelings.
And in my playthrough, Frisk was a dogged pacifist who was very reluctant to even slightly hurt anyone and very willing to put themselves into terrible danger because of that. And I think seeing that, feeling the feelings behind it resonating with them, made Chara a better person. A profoundly better person. Just in itself, the way it would anyone, but… Here's an example of the best of humanity, that same humanity they despised. Here's someone willing to refuse violence even if it puts them at risk of dying, even actually dying once before they discovered they could LOAD even after death, if they remained determined. Someone who again and again and again takes attacks and doesn't fight back unless it's absolutely necessary, who sees a whole people that have time and time again just tried to callously kill them and keeps choosing to help them. To trust them, and reach out to them, again and again and again, and who each time is proven right. Even when there's nothing to reach out to but dead human children whose SOULs had been absorbed for power by an entity whose power was represented in their SAVE by the highest numbers expressible there.
I think seeing all of that really challenged Chara's worldview in general and view of humanity in particular. I think they understood that they had been wrong, and done wrong.
And then Frisk goes back one more time to set things right and save everyone. Chara is there experiencing what Frisk is feeling as they go through that lab, as they learn about Determination... when they find those videotapes and learn about how Chara died intentionally, hoping to wreak violence on humanity and then break the Barrier. And Chara learns that Flowey was their adoptive brother, all along. Sees with what must be horror what has become of sweet little Asriel, knowing that this only happened because of then. Understanding what Asriel chose in the end, why he chose it, and now seeing what trying to make up for that 'mistake' had done to him. And Chara sees Frisk try so hard to save him, even after everything he's done, just because he's another person. And Chara does everything they can to help Frisk, together mustering enough Determination to deny death itself, as many times as needed, until Frisk does it. Reaches out to Asriel and helps him to get over what happened enough to stop fighting, to start to heal, to give up on godhood... To use a moment of unity to bring down the Barrier without needing to hurt anyone else.
And Chara watched their brother realize that Frisk isn't them, and that that is good. That Frisk is a better person, and one whom Asriel wishes he could have had in his life before, as he admits to himself that Chara wasn't a good person. And Chara lets go. They let Frisk and everyone else go to their happy ending, while they stay behind.
And then Asriel and Chara have one last moment, in the game. Chara comes back and Asriel, even once again lacking a SOUL, cares enough about everyone else to ask Chara to let them be happy, to not tear them away from everything. But Asriel doesn't trust Chara, and so asks that if they are going to rip them out of their happy ending… do it to him too. Don't make him sit through everything repeating. Don't make him become deadened all over again by seeing everything play out over and over and over again in countless variations. And then he imagines that this exchange has happened again and again and again and Chara must be tired of hearing it. Because that is what Chara would do, isn't it?
But Chara doesn't say anything. Maybe they can't, maybe they just choose not to. Instead, they let their brother say goodbye to them. And then they choose to let go. Chara couldn't be the one to save Asriel; it had to be Frisk. Once Frisk has... What waits for them and their brother… I don't know. But I hope they can be happy. I hope they got their closure. And, maybe vainly, I hope they can find some way to have each other again, but healthily this time. But that's for them, not for me. Maybe one or both choose to let go entirely and fade away, return to the death that had once taken them. All I've got is hopes for the future of these people that aren't even real.
Immersion is a powerful thing, huh?
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So, about the Genocide Route. There's a lot of characterization for Chara there, and some for Asriel too. I know people tend to read the Genocide Route as Chara taking Frisk over and unleashing their preexisting violent impulses, but I really don't think that's right. I don't think that route shows what Chara was like before much at all. I think the Genocide Route is what happens when Chara finds themselves brought back from the pall of death, given some sort of second chance, and all they can do in it is watch Frisk murder everyone they encounter. When they see their mother get murdered in cold blood, and can feel how little Frisk cared about her while doing it. When all they can feel when it happens is that sick sense of pleasure at an accomplishment. When they're forced to find some kind of meaning in that, some reason for why they were brought back and made to be complicit in this, some purpose to this existence.
And they find it. They find it in their idea of numerical invincibility, and they cling to it. And they are abraded down until all that's left of them is their worst impulses stripped of context, magnified, and then redefined under the light of this 'purpose'… and that sick sense of accomplishment. More and more, Chara wears down to this thing that only cares about power and violence, and more and more Chara loses their sense of distinction from Frisk, sees these actions as their own; or maybe they become more and more able to exert control of the actions as they redefine themselves to be better at wielding power. Either way, Chara murders their father. Chara murders their brother. Then Chara destroys humanity, not even out of hatred, but simply for the sake of power. They destroy all the monsters they missed, too. Only power matters; the gaining of it, and also the exercise of it for its own sake. The only thing they don't destroy is Frisk, their reliable partner, the one who showed them their purpose. The one they are perversely grateful to, but will betray the moment it suits them, now that they have the power to do so.
I've heard a lot about how this is criticism of RPG players, and I can see that but more and more I don't think that the purpose of this is to moralize, or at least that that's not the only purpose. Because this shows Chara become their worst self, this epitome of power in a husk of a person. Someone who wasn't a great person from the start falls to horrific depths. And then they can't climb back out. You can't help them out. Chara defines themselves as Numbers Go Up because after all this trauma from the first moment that their plan went awry and Asriel held back their powers, and they both died a second time… All they have refuge in is that belief in invincibility. Chara believes you can escape suffering if you become the strongest thing in the world. And so Chara does just that. And it's all they can hold onto, because it's the only thing holding them together.
But really they're just another lost soul who you no longer have the power to save or comfort or bring positive emotions to, someone tricking themselves into thinking they're an unfeeling demon beyond sentimentality just to feel like they have some control, so they can delight in exercising power over others without guilt or regret.
Frisk can give them their SOUL and Chara doesn't change, doesn't really feel anything more, no matter what Frisk shows them. Because they've closed their heart to those feelings. You can't take this back. You can't save them. They're the only person you can't save. Sometimes, when you hurt people you make them worse and you can't be the one to help them after that. And you can't cheat. Whatever you do��� Chara remembers it. You can't just take it back, can't do it over. You can only look on in horror at what Chara has become and accept or deny your fault in it.
In the Pacifist Route… I think Chara feels something like that when learning that Flowey was Asriel all along, and knowing it was their fault.
It's easy to blame what Asriel became on the lack of his SOUL. But I really believe that's not what it was. Maybe that does dull feelings, but you don't need a SOUL to love, to care. We see that, with Asriel-as-Flowey asking Chara to leave the others to their happy ending. We can see it in how Chara, at their worst, gets a SOUL and gets no better. How Chara, with a SOUL, does not understand the sentimentality still held by the player who has already given up theirs. Flowey didn't become a monster because of the lack of his SOUL. He was a traumatized little kid who couldn't get his life back, couldn't get his sibling back, but had the power to evade consequences and abused it to try and cope until it further wore down his ability to care. So he retreated to seeing things as less than real to cope with it all, resorted to cruelty and vindictiveness just to feel something.
Where Asriel as Flowey makes a performative show of his petty cruelty and vindictiveness, Chara dresses it up with dispassion and a veneer of objective judgement. But, deep down? They're the same. If you don't let yourself feel anything you can't be hurt.
The Genocide Route isn't some creepypasta about a demon taking over an innocent. Nothing so convenient as that. Because the point is that you choose to do it. You do it, and you choose it every step of the way, and only at the very very end does it become too late to turn back. So it fits it better, I think, if it's not about Chara corrupting Frisk... But about you corrupting Chara. Whether that you is Frisk, or you the player, you make someone who was a bad person to start with so much worse.
Asriel was pressured and manipulated by Chara and became a worse person for it, and then retreated to the toxic ideology of "kill or be killed" to cope with that and further trauma, as well as denying his own emotionality in an attempt to make himself invincible. And in the Genocide Route, Chara does the exact same fucking thing. A different toxic ideology, that the only thing that matters is acquiring power, a different mask to deny their emotions which is impassive rather than irreverent, but so similar. Beat for beat. Even down to the fact that Asriel still idolized the person who hurt him, considered them special, the only person worth caring about: Chara wants you to come with them to conquer and destroy new worlds, considers you the perfect partner, doesn't kill you even when you try to resist them, even keeps remaking the world for you when you ask despite already getting your SOUL the first time. You showed them the truth of their existence, after all, even without meaning to. Just as Chara showed Asriel that this world is kill or be killed, even without meaning to.
So… Knowing that all of this could happen…
It adds a lot, I think, to the Pacifist Ending. To Chara getting better, growing as a person and helping everyone, learning they were wrong about the world and humanity, and letting power go. Letting Frisk go. Letting everyone go. Hearing out Asriel's grievances with what they did and accepting them. Just being happy that Asriel could be saved along with everyone else, before the end, despite the negative impact they had had on him and how coming back as a flower no one recognized as him fucked him up even worse.
I just like those two poor siblings, and can't help but be sympathetic to somebody young making a nasty plan with good intentions but without a real appreciation for what they were doing. I am so glad that such a tragic and awful thing got better the way it did, amidst everyone else getting their happy ending. And I think Chara just gets me so much because they become so much better than they were to begin with, and because I felt I was there with them. Immersion is a powerful thing. But maybe even more than that... It's that Frisk doesn't save Chara. Frisk can't save Chara. Frisk can just give Chara the chance they needed to save themselves.
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sigh... (reaches limply for an Andor-style Heir to the Empire adaption with Luke, Leia, and Han)
#but no#were gonna get grogu and mando chucked in the garbage to hatch the new MCU#Mando Cinematic Universe starring Not Mando#ok#no one asked for it filoni#no one#the mandalorian
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So you mentioned the Amazing Spider-man movies, what are your thoughts on them? For me; I was pleasantly surprised by 1 AND 2. Like 2 is bad, real bad, but the jokes were legit, Andrew Garfield and Emma Stone are just...an amazing on screen couple and until the transformation Harry is a really fun villain....just sucks that most of the movie is exposition about peoples relationships to one another or experiments done mostly off screen.
TASM1 is perfectly serviceable as a standalone project and was definitely not the worst jumping off point, but it struggles to really properly understand Spider-Man/Peter as a personality. Peter absolutely doesn't have to be a goody two-shoes loser, all of the best adaptations of Peter imo can have some serious attitude and grit to their persona, but TASM1 kinda over-corrects on the Tobey Maguire "shy nerd" angle by making Spidey a bit too much of a dick. I remember the movie getting a lot of praise for finally making Spider-Man funny and quippy, praise I similarly gave at the time, but it really... doesn't do that nearly as much as ppl gave it credit for??? There's like ONE scene where Spider-Man is kinda jokey with someone he suspects to be Ben's killer, but that scene kinda stinks because he's not quipping as much as he's like actively cruel lmao. Andrew Garfield and Emma Stone had great chemistry though and you can tell Marc Webb knew his stuff when it came to directing that kind of romantic tension, seeing as how his previous project was 500 Days of Summer. All-in-all, it's a Fine movie but it's not a fantastic adaptation of the things I personally like about Spider-Man.
TASM2 is so much more intriguing to me to watch and to talk about. It's genuinely baffling how that movie ended up like it did, but in a way that almost anyone could have predicted. That movie STINKS. It's really really bad. But it also has kind of the opposite problem to TASM1 in that... TASM1 is a good movie that doesn't properly showcase the character of Spider-Man, whereas TASM2 is a garbage movie that features some of the best live action Spider-Man scenes/setpieces we had seen and would ever see to this day. It's sincerely tragic how many great INDIVIDUAL MOMENTS are in that movie, and how loosely connected they are by some monumentally stupid studio meddling. That movie has everything going in its favor with Andrew Garfield in the lead, the best live action Spider-Man suit to this day, the most thrilling and well rendered swinging sequences put to film, and the occasional glimpse of a true Friendly Neighborhood Spider-Man that is down on the ground connecting with and watching over not just the city itself but the people within it. There's a montage in the middle of the movie that features Spider-Man on his daily patrol and he comes across as just so PRESENT and on the same level as the people he protects, meanwhile in the audio track you hear newscasters and interviews fiercely debating whether or not what he does is actually worthwhile. And that shit HITS. But unfortunately that kind of stuff is still too rare and it far overshadowed by Sony desperately trying to make a Spidey Cinematic Universe without earning it. Ultimately they had all of the pieces to make a truly definitive adaptation of Spidey that I feel like almost anyone could get behind, but they just... couldn't. Even Spider-Man PS4, commonly lauded as one of the most definitive Spidey stories of all time, uses SO MUCH of the same DNA of the Amazing Spider-Man films, but the difference is that it had the space to be only exactly what it needed to be. Nothing more, nothing less. Anyway I could talk more about this for sure but I'm looking at the length of this write-up and wincing already LOL.
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